zumba gold

There is a lady leading Zumba Gold at the library twice a month.  I love it. 

I realized recently that I have a lot of inhibitions about dancing for a reason.  When I was 8 my neighbor showed us "Dirty Dancing" a lot and worse.   So to me dancing led to sex.  I didn't have any experience to know otherwise.  Then when I was 12 my dad left the family for a lady he met... dancing!

So even watching dancing makes me uncomfortable.  But I feel very self conscious dancing. 

Zumba Gold is awesome because dancing with these older women is completely not any threat to my snowflake self image.  I find myself just grinning and enjoying movement for the joy of moving.  This is really strange for me, but I'm so glad.