So it's been a few days and I haven't cheated on the idea of giving up sugar. In the past I've tried to limit certain treats, so I just ate others. Or I tried to use artificial sweeteners, so I just ate poison. And this time it's not really a cosmetic change. P loves me whatever. And I'm much more calm if I'm not eating sugar. I'm a better mom, of my kids, when I'm not eating sugar.
Mentally I've been going through various things I won't be eating now, or maybe ever again. Goodbye nutella, ice cream, pop tarts, chocolate, twix, doughnuts... I'm not looking to find a healthier version of these things. I'm just saying goodbye. My personality allows for me to just go cold turkey. And fortunately, for ease of life, I can still let others eat sweets and it doesn't bother me. In fact, it's awesome. I'm like, "Here's a pop tart, don't make a mess." instead of wishing my kids weren't eating all the treats. Sadly, I have had moments like that "Hey, don't eat all my... whatever."
Time for me to do this small thing that means a lot for my relationship with my kids. I haven't yelled at them since I quit sugar. I also haven't felt ashamed for loosing my temper over trivial things. Yay!